1st jan 2014

Hello! Happy new year everyone! Its alwedi 2014, how time flies! I am 18 now and i am so excited haha. May the year filled with His blessings. 

Ya Allah thank you for every single thing i had last year (which was yesterday haha). Problems come and go, but yet i still have the chances to still alive and breathe happily! Thank you for still keeping my family beside me, thanks for giving them the chance to live in this new year same just like me! 

kadang kadang emo. serious. rasa mcm malam malam ni best search pasal religious things. yang buat aku sedar, betapa jauhnya aku dengan pencipta. serious ah. i am not trying to show how pious i am, seriously not. aku tak alim doh. tapi cam bila dh Allah kurniakan otak ni, aku cuba try jadi org yg berguna sikit ah. 

One of biggest thing yg aku try nak buat; try to not mencarut hahahaha yknow like bodoh bangang tu mcm dh lali with the tounge. i mean yknow. those unnecessary words??? maybe i should stop. and try to be a better muslimah instead. kita cuba la. Allah yg tentukan. hee 

So i activate my fb acc just now just for fun just to see how stupid i was back then! nyeh nyeh it is such a shameful to see all the pictures of mine, not wearing tudung pastu rambut minyak minyak omg i just cant. i was so comot, till now pun. 

and the saddest part i could say here is, i re-read our old coversations (comments and IM) and i suddenly cried for some reasons. 

it was sad to know that our friendship ruined just bcs of nothing :( 

sedih doh :( 

dia macam rindu dye lain macam sbb tk contact sbb tktau sbb ape :( 

serious ah. maybe awak tk igt saya dah haha nangis. tapi duh saya igt everything. kenapa ah. dah 2014 aku still sama lagi tulis pasal bende ni kt blog dr dulu kot. its okay. if Allah fated us to be this way, i'll be fineee. i'll be fine heh :)  

two hearts.

So yeah, 

I shouldve stop complaining how my lifes spent, things went not that well but arent that bad. Some shits happened and then comes a rainbow. Shits are probably the lessons that need to be learned. Without pains, theres no gain. But however, i need to take a moment and thank to Allah for giving me the best people, yet love me for who i am; my dearest family. 

The ones that i care the most, the ones that taking care of me since i was a baby. The ones that accept all my flaws wihout any complains and the best part is, they stay. I love u korang. 

But at some part, i feel so empty. Like, u feel like theres a hole in yr heart and need to be filled with something. 

You know living as a single girl isnt that bad, cause freedom is way how u rocked ur world. But i gotta say, i felt so envy how i opened my instagram and saw like most of the girls that i followed, went out with the special ones. spending their holidays together happily gosh i am too jealous ahah i sound so desperate omg. 

But just to be clear, theres a reason why i rasa that way. 

Its hard to love that one person who doesnt love u back. He seems does not know my existance pun. He seems super hate me after i wc him. Its hard tho. (rough times konon). You know u wont get his love but all u can do is simply nothing. Rasa mcm unwanted gila, u get my point rite? Maybe ive been terbiasa ada someone beside everytime i am having my rough times kan which were my friends when i was in highschool. But skrg, this stupid loneliness gives me so much hopes towards everything. haih. 

I literally need to get over these feelings away, these bad feelings!

But i told myself everytime i reached that limit, whre i cried after all. I told myself, Allah wont gives you something precious easily. Cause something that comes easy, wont last. Something that comes last, is precious. And yes, theres a rainbow after hurricanes. Patience is all i need now. Gotta stop overthinking over everything. Let Allah do the rest. Just have faith in Him.

Stay strong aina. Bcs i know, theres still a person, that loves me for who i am and not who i want to be. Thank you Allah. 

tkde function

hi people. 

(sumpah rasa pointless + syok sendiri kalau update blog cause no one will read haha) 

so its been like a month since i finished my freakin sijil pelajaran malaysia haih tk caya pulak rasanya!!! bio was hard. tah, tkde yg senang kot semua mindfuck je.

but then, i feel nothing pun. to be exact, lifes after spm is not as exciting as what i expected tho. masa dulu i was planning to do these and those, hanging out ngn kawan sampai muntah la, layan movie sampai tertonggeng (yes i did!!!!!), ambik lesen la, kerja la and shopping etc etc. 

but at the time i finished my last paper until now..... all i do just tidur makan tidur makan layan movie kekadang hish i feel like so freakin lifeless doh. lagi 3 bulan nak terperap cmni. gila bhai >< 

i gotta say this, 

i miss my classmates. i really do. everyone mcm disappear cmtu je after this they'll go to plkn like wth. rindunya sia kat korang :(( rindu nak jerit nama bapak korang lol, nak kunci orang dlm kelas, nak bagi salam kt cikgu using nama penuh (contohnya selamat pagi puan wan hanina hanim binti wan ahmad) satu kelas bagi salam centu hahahaha, nak kacau haizat, nak kacau afifah, nak gossip with zika and yes nazrin these two both my gossip partner. oh and yes!! farhana.... mana lah dye hilang T__T 

i seriously need yguys back. weh.. rindu alahai. 

tp cam. dh lupe kot masing2 heh. 

so yes thats how i basically spent my day after finished school. nothing much hm. 

went to kajang last few weeks and sleepover at nina's it was a blast!! i finally meet my sekolah rendah and form one punya kawan. after 3 years of not meeting them haih suka suka hehe. tp dyorg tk excited mybe im the one who overly excited to meet them tho. 

dah goodnite x 

pernah?

pernah tak kau rasa yang kau sayang seseorang tu sangat sangat?

sampai apa dia buat apa pun kau iya kan aje?

sampai dia buat salah pun kau buta kan mata?

pernah tak kau rindu seseorang tu sangat sangat?

sampai kau nangis teresak esak?

sampai semua benda pun kau nampak muka dia je?

pernah tak kau biarkan je apa pun jadi, asalkan kau tk hilang dia?

pernah tak kau sanggup korbankan masa kau semata mata nak hantar mcd depan rmh dia?

pernah tak kau berjaga malam sebab kau risaukan dia? 

pernah tak kau korek tabung semata mata nak belanja dia topup? 

pernah tak kau keluarkan air mata sebab kau cemburu?

pernah tak kau bukak tv keluar muka nora danish tapi kau nampak muka dia je?

pernah tak kau selitkan nama dia dalam doa kau?

pernah tak?

kau sayang dia. sungguh kau sayang dia. walaupun dia bukan milik kau.

senior year?

Tak percaya siot, saya dah besar. Saya dh isi borang matrik, saya dah check PLKN tk dpt yeay! and plg penting, saya dh boleh ambik lesen :')) 

tk best lah ckp "saya"

boleh tk malam ni nak post byk byk?!!!! 

So, terima kasih ya Allah. atas segalanya. 17 years of living. heh. tahun depan dh tk sekolah. bye adik adik ku. 

Ok, aku dh sekolah cempaka like 4 years kot? Since form 2. 

This girl. 

Cam the best i ever had :') deskmate since form 3. PMR dapat result sama lepastu masuk kelas sama pastu duduk sama sama sampai skrg. Rasanya tk pernah berpisah lagi kot.... tktahu la kalau masuk U nanti canne. 

Sampai satu tahap bila dia buat kau kecik hati sakit bodo bodo pny reasons, mcm dh tk kisah. Kenal sgt perangai diri masing masing luar dalam. ceh luar dalam mcm pervert je aku ni :>) 

I mean like, tkde masa nak gaduh sbb bende tah pape. 4 years of friendship and still counting ok nur haziqah! Tak sangka dh form 5 skrg. Dulu masa form3 cam dlm benak fikiran aku sentiasa "eeeee bestnye jd senior. jd dakdak hot" 

Hmmm what i can say is pergi mampos. Tahun ni tahun yang terlalu sakit nak lalui. Tapi tahun yang terlalu manis untuk dilupai. 

:')

Dia guide aku ke jalan yg benar. Dia mrh kalau aku lupa diri. Dia kwn gossip aku n kwn mengumpat 4lyfe. Kawan sehati & sejiwa. Kawan se......... tktahu lah. 

Mana nak cari kwn camni kat U nanti. Tell me. Tell me cb!! 

Mungkin ni kot org kata kwn dunya and akhirah :') *ada ke org kata*

Allah dah hntr kau utk bagi aku hidup sampai ke tahap ni. Mana tau kalau kau tkde, aku dkt tong sampah ke skrg. Kawan dengan tikus *sedih nya siot kwn dgn tikos*

:') 

Thank you for helping me out in whatever I do, lagi lagi study. Tunjuk ajar mu tidak akan dilupai. Segala pahit akan saya telan, segala manis akan saya kenang. 

So after this, we are not going to spend our time together like what we used to do. We're not going to do like stupid shits yang students wouldnt do (maybe they do but whatevs). We will continue our studies in a diff course, or diff way, or diff place insyaAllah. If we are fated to be bestfriend sampai bila bila, so jumpa lagi lepas ni. Lets pull together this SPM. We struggle everything together to succeed bersama. Jom kita tempuh dugaan yg Allah bagi sama sama. Persetankan what people are saying about us. We are bestfriend. And insyaAllah, nothing can tear our friendship apart. 

*gambar zaman aku kurus dia gemuk hahahaha* 

Ingat, kawan sampai mati okay. Masuk U ke apa jgn lupa aku. Dh dpt A physics tu jgn nak riak sgt (tetiba) love you so much baby qurl. 

Babi la lepas ni mesti rindu

iftar

hi? skrg pukul 1.44 pagi and esok sekolah. 

so tadi pergi berbuka dgn gugurlz and boboyz. dekat mana? teka sendiri. 

last minute plan. ntah mcm mana boleh jadi tah haha saya lah ketua dia >:) ok padahal tak. terima kasih kawan kawan i had so much fun. 

lepas berbuka, pergi terawih ramai ramai dkt masjid putra syamim hntr :p 

the best part is cikgu naem ada muahahaha. 

tudia tudia! 

thank you dear friends. sumpah seronok. seronok gila. 

hardest

so hi, this is sincerely from my heart. im not trying to seek any attention from anyone. random confess about how i rlly feel right now. 

assalamualaikum,

urm well, time flies. we are alrdy in ramadhan. the most precious month. and its july, which means spm is too near and it sucks. trial is just about a month, i guess. i dont know what i rlly feel right now. of course, i am scared. scared of getting bad marks. scared of getting scold by mom. and dad. but do i hv that enough time to recover all the things ive studied for 2 years, basically five years la. no, i dont. 

entahla. i rlly lack of self motivate. i need those motivate 24 jam. i dont even know what would i be in the future. whats my future? 

problems datang tk tentu masa. come and go. i am not that strong to face it alone. mcm berperang. aku tkleh sorg sorg. 

tak, aku bukan sedih atau menangis tiap tiap hari. but aku sendiri tk dpt nak ungkap kan dgn kata kata. maybe aku tak kuat. 

those feelings bila you see yr classmates rajin nak mampos dlm class and youre termenung and think "spm lambat lagi"

when you went home, and mak started marah marah and you buat tk kisah, lay in yr bed, scroll timeline kt twitter. 

when youre trying to do yr homework, and tk fhm, and tk reti buat, and fxcked up, mula lah pergi dapur and makan semua benda sbb nak hlgkan stress. yes, im that kind of person who loves to eat when i get mad or smthng. yes i am!!!! 

aku pon tktahu. 

whats with myself? setan dah hasut smpai hati dh gelap ke jadi mcm ni haha. even aswad, org plg kenal aku mcm cakap why i changed a lot. 

and my friends. "asal asik moodswing je"

im not sure if i can succeed or not. 

sebab hati dah gelap. and the point is, boleh ke berjaya dgn perangai negative berleluasa mcm ni. i couldnt find the cure how to solve this negative treatment yg dh meresap dlm badan. yg mcm, mcm mana aku nak berjaya ni weh. mcm bodos!!!!! 

spm, cepatnya awak datang. kenapa. kenapa cepat sgt time flies. cpt sangat sampai tk sempat nak cakap babai, yela bcs fly cpt sgt (tkde function). i dowwana end my my high school. i just dowwan. i dowwana saya goodbye to all my classmates, juniors and urm school? err no. 

spm, i want u to be over like now i mean now. 

*kan aku dah cakap, aku tk reti express kan perasaan in words. 

Bismillah

Hello people, alhamdulillah! 

dapat jugak buat blog baru, syukur syukur. reason why i delete my old blog is bnyk sgt cerita lama yg dah boleh jd kan sambal petai yg basi. busuk dan lapuk sgt dah and yes, gmbr tk pakai tudung bersepah. apa kata delete je en :-). 

ok so hi, its me aina! 

amira aina, seventeen. nilai. heheh :b 

aku excited lah ya Allah. first post setelah dua tahun tk blog pape, so what do you expect?!! mmg excited terlampau lah cite dye. 

i've made my blog using phone (bcs yguys pun did the same thing en en en en) je sbb wifi tkde. so jgn kau kisah pasal deco deco blog ni. sumpah malas nak hias. biar je dia hipster hipster gini. kosong heheh. hipster mcm owner gak. ya Allah i miss "the best of amira aina" sangat sangat. sangat ok. zaman kegemilangan semua benda. zaman tk sedar dunia. zaman perasan cantik. zaman pmr. zaman tah ape ape ntah. 

InsyaAllah, i will post cam random things la. especially school. friends. family. and studies. oh tidak lupa utk kutuk org dlm ni, ((semestinya)) ehe taknak taknak. dosa. 

ntah apehal aku perasan je tulis mcm mcmni. 

mcm lah ade org nak baca uhuks. so yah, saya kembar nora danish. ramai ckp so nak buat mcm mana hmmmmm hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.

orite, tq.

apa yang buruk & busuk dtg dari tuan empunya blog. 

yang baik, cantik & manis semuanya dari Allah. 

assalamualaikum, 🌸